It’s tough to get rid of scars. By nature, they are there with you for a while, but that doesn’t have to debilitate you in moving on. I had a similar problem, I got through (what I thought) was most of the psychological stuff, but I felt I couldn’t move on with the scars on my arms. I felt guilty, and weak, and almost like getting through my problems didn’t mean anything if I had to be reminded of them, but a social worker that I talked to really changed my perspective on the whole thing. He told me that in order to stop feeling this extreme debilitating guilt, I needed to almost embrace what I had done as a part of my past and learn from that experience and take it with me to make me a better person in the future. He kind of compared it to a kid who breaks something by playing ball in the house. That kid has (hopefully) learned from his mistakes and is able to move on with that experience under his belt, to make him a better rounded adult. I don’t know if this helps you, I think that